Following on from the last post a letter to the dust 19\/4\/26 I have been rereading the Howatch novels and which has prompted these three posts.<\/p>\n
The air in a cathedral \u00a0is never quite still. It carries the scent of damp stone, ancient dust, and the faint, lingering ghost of incense or candle. To stand in the nave of a great cathedral for me can help me feel anchored to something immutable a “Truth” carved in granite. Yet, as the sun shifts through the windows, the light always transforms the space. What was solid becomes ethereal; what was in shadow becomes gold.<\/p>\n
For years, I stood in such spaces feeling a profound disconnect. I came to faith late in lay teens and attended an evangelical church rooted \u00a0on the “stone” of the absolute, propositional truths of the faith, but I lived in the “light”, a world where everything felt relative, shifting, and subjective. It wasn’t until I stumbled upon the Starbridge<\/i> novels of Susan Howatch that I began to understand this wasn’t just my private struggle, but possibly something very Anglican.<\/p>\n
Historically, Christian theology treated Truth as a static monument. It was Adaequatio rei et intellectus, ie <\/i>Truth is basically the “perfect match” between the thoughts in your head and the reality of the world around you and could be distilled to an objective reality. In this framework, Truth was a deposit to be defended. It stands outside of time, solid, absolute and unchangeable.<\/p>\n
Its where Thomas Aquinas meets Plato, Aristotle, and Socrates, \u00a0the world of the Sentences<\/i> of Peter Lombard and the Summa<\/i> of Aquinas. But for me, reading Howatch\u2019s portrayal of the mid-20th-century Church of England, I realised that this “absolute” truth often manifested as a rigid moralism. In the character of Neville Aysgarth, we see a man who mastered the “Practical” side of the Church, the administration, the legalism, the outward appearance of Truth, while his inner life remained a fractured landscape. He reflected the “Practical” faith of the establishment: structured, but often calcified.<\/p>\n
The Enlightenment moved the seat of Truth from the objective to the subjective. Suddenly, the light was no longer just on<\/i> the stone; the stone was defined by how the eye saw<\/i> the light.<\/p>\n
As I navigated these waters, Howatch\u2019s novels served as a map for something wider. Faith at its best, refuses to choose between the cold stone of fundamentalism and the vaporous mist of pure subjectivism. It seeks a via media the middle way. <\/i>However, this middle way is often a place of intense tension and as previously blogged about can be to easily confused or corrupted by power. .<\/p>\n
By the 1960s, this reached a breaking point. When John Robinson published Honest to God<\/i> in 1963, he argued that the “God out there”, the absolute, objective monarch, was no longer a viable category. For many, this was a betrayal. But for me, reading Robinson alongside Howatch\u2019s Mystical Paths<\/i>, it felt like a permission slip. I realized that my struggle with “Absolute Truth” wasn’t a lack of faith, but a call to look deeper, to find the “Ground of Our Being” rather than a distant deity.<\/p>\n
In Howatch\u2019s world, the tension is personified by the “Practical” Aysgarths and the “Mystical” Darrows. The Practical side demands a Truth that is clear, legalistic, and useful for social order. The Mystical side, represented by the visionary Jon Darrow, seeks a Truth that is experiential, haunting, and often dangerous.<\/p>\n
I found myself caught between them. I came to faith in the “stone” of the evangelical \u00a0tradition, but I craved the “light” of a mystical encounter. The novels helped me name this: I was looking for a faith that could hold the evangelical-liberal tension without snapping. It was through these stories that I first realized I couldn’t navigate this tension alone. I saw in the characters\u2019 lives the desperate, recurring need for a “Father Abbot” figure, a realisation that eventually led me to seek my first spiritual director.<\/p>\n
The historical tension leaves us with a challenge: if Absolute Truth feels like a tomb, and Relative Truth feels like a mist, where do we stand? The answer, is found in those moments where the transcendent breaks through the mundane.<\/p>\n
In my next post, we will step out of the cathedral and into the “Third Spaces” of the 1990s Emerging Church, exploring how a new generation, and my own younger self, attempted to re-read the Truth in a postmodern world, guided by the wisdom of the “pioneer.” Where I first saw those glimpses of transcendence breaking out of mundane: the flower forcing itself through the pavement that I wrote about when living on an estate and seeking to be present and the words that Jonny Baker put into a song “I have seen the hills a thousand times before but it took someone to point them out to me”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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